escape from normality

Friday, April 27, 2007

guess what, ive got my invitation letter officially stating that i have to serve the nation,

yea, i got the army, and my camp is at tekong, bmtc 2 on sept 14th,

after my birthday thats a plus point but then its on the fasting month,

just great... guess its major endurance and tolerance when i am there,

thats quite a long way off from now i guess, ive got 4 mths to enjoy,

i can choose to enjoy the rest of my days enjoying but nooo...

i chose to be diligent and keep insisting on a job, which i hope that i will get, soon,

to think of it, ive got my pay and my letter on the same day,

strange enough, after suppressed into waiting for quite long i didnt feel relieved that the feeling is over.

got one of the most annoying interviews ever on thursday,

a marketing agent position for a company that sells wellness products,

and its 100% commission based, omg, i did not mind that,

cause the person said i could earn upto $3000++ once i am really good in the job,

but then its based on connection with people and i cannot rely on risk like this,

the interviewer seriously wanted me to join while aiming suck up opinions to me,

saying things like,

"are you mixed blood?..cause you look chinese"

"yea....my grandma is chinese..." i replied.

"ouh...thats why i see you in a different light"

"issit?...i dont see your point" i said, while seriously looking annoyed.

f****** racist asshole, i was really pissed off,

cause i went with my friend and he did not pester him just because he doesnt look mixed,

he was seriously a self-centered arse, while talking abt himself while interviewing us,

in the end, i just told them i was not interested and it was not the right job that i am looking for,

and to think he had the nerve to call my friend and i after that to join him,

yea, my friend just got the call first so he warned me not to pick up when he calls,

he sms me soon after, i feel like sms-ing, f*** off, but i am too nice for that, haha.

low on mood and morale after that cause i was suppressing too much piss,

so met another friend and the three of us went marina square,

to think they are my sch mates from sec 1 and we are almost like brothers now,

we went bowling cause its been a long time since i did anyways,

shiok, the strike-outs and longkangs that i achieved during the session,

started out like a freaking blind fella, but ended up like a pro, well...sort of.

aliff, he curls the ball like he owns it, and i still wonder how.

my face looks serious sian-ed in that pic, haha...
i spoilt the pic with hairil trying his best to make it good.

for today basically got to the place which my other friend, long wei, recommended me,

went with him in the morning to the agency and the agent says she has a job for me,

its at ayer rajah, i said ok, since the pay is not that bad, $9/hr rate,

its some IT related job which i was seriously looking for,

so..pray for me that i get this job alright cause i seriously need one.

after friday prayers, went to smash some shuttlecocks,

its been another 'been-a-while moment so lets do it' kind of thing,

but actually you could gauge your stamina by playing badminton,

the recover runs, positioning runs and jump smash all requires loads of stamina,

i guess, i would input this as my weekly activity just like my dad,

to think he is 50+ and he plays like 20+, that shows alot.

damn.

11:54 PM

Tuesday, April 24, 2007

morning started with gym work, cause suddenly i had the urge to burn calories,
not that it matters, since my metabolism is too high to have any access calories anyways,
went with my friend and once there, got on the treadmill, ran for about 20 mins,
my stamina has always been my achilles heel cause there are more fast fibres in my legs,
but then again, could always increase this type of training in order to beef up my stamina,
did a few other body work especially on my abs, cause its not rock hard enough, haha.

then went with him for interview, his interview anyways, and i was forced to follow,
what a good friend i am right?...haha,
but nvm, at least he recommended his agent to help me look for a job,
it was bank of china near bugis area there,
the company was called muvee and i was pretty impressed with the setting of the place,
it was totally rad for an office cause it had this modern style to it,
damn, wish i had gotten the interview, even if the job sucks, the place rocks.

went to sunshine plaza while waiting for his sorry ass,
i did go to a shop that sells original lava lamps,
i did not knew there were imitation lava lamps, cause i was looking for one,
the sales person told me that "real" lava lamps cost ard 100-170 dollars,
but heys, did not find one that attracted me so i passed on the deal,
walked pass the nafa building considering that day i was talking abt enrolling in this school,
why didnt i take a diploma here in the first place...

went plaza singapura after that cause i was having the urge to splurge on some speakers,
saw yan qing there while looking at some of the creative speakers that were on sale,
i swear i did not know she was working there, i was shocked when she was beside me,
shite, the $79 speakers that she recommended that was good and had a nice look but it was out of stock,
nvm, i will come back and get that speaker cause my desktop speakers aint good enough.

i think i am dead if i continue having the need to splurge cash,
lucky i always do not carry extra cash when i go out to neutralize that,
haha, now you know why i do not carry my ATM card around.

11:44 PM

Monday, April 23, 2007

didnt realise the previous post was my longest post ever, haha.

okay, i was just into a deep conversation with a friend about going into university,
did some pretty intensive research and the courses that are available out there,
nafa caught my eye but they need professional experience and good portfolio,
it means i have to work in the multimedia line and build my portfolio,
i think after NS i would do just that, get a job in the multimedia industry,
and talking about NS, are they scheming something up or what,
i still havent got my enlistment letter, darn it.

seriously if i had a choice, i would go overseas but yea..its the whole independent thing,
i dont feel good about using my parents money since im already an adult by then,
even though they keep insisting that money is for my education,
why cant they understand, its time for them to relax, stop worrying about me,
maybe go on a honeymoon or better, pilgrimage to mecca,
and they still have my younger siblings to contend with,
haha, i think most probably i would become a bachelor who is in his 30s and not married,
yeah...i am career driven alright, hopefully that mentally stays cause i have ambitions to fulfill,
anyways, i always have this mindset of completing my life before settling down,
shite, maybe i am thinking way far ahead, but its a step to keep me focused.

digging this song right now, just like the acoustic tune but maybe its meaningful to some, enjoy.

9:50 PM

Sunday, April 22, 2007

okay, time for me to clear the webs and dust, but heys, its only been a week, dont really feel like translating the happenings in my life in text you know, but since ive got the free time today, might as well note all of it down at one go, ready?...okay go.

weekdays were pretty much spent going out and two days were reserved for job searching, first up was the handphone promoter that my friend recommend me.
"heys, the interviewer is a malay babe leh, lucky you"
thats what he said, i was like, are you sure?

the place was pretty far cause we alighted at paya lebar and had to take a cab,
then i recognise the place because i went there before but i forgot with whom,
i was seriously having dejavu' but still i could not remember when.

okay...so went up to the office building, waited outside the office,
then this female staff asked us to wait and sit down while waiting for the interviewer,
now is the most funniest shite that happened when i was looking for a job,
there she was, okay, not sounding bad but my friend told me she was a babe,
i looked at him and saw him trying to hold back his laughter,
i could swear at that moment if i did not look away i would laugh like an idiot,
she told us to wait and walked into her office to get something,
"asshole, wth man, this aint a babe, but this is ur "babe", " i said seriously holding my laughter.

she came back, notes and all, brief us through what was needed as a handphone promoter,
so i asked her whats the pay, she said its $6, i turned to my friend cause he said it would be $7,
damn, she was speaking to us as though we are applying for a professional job,
using intellectual words and such, in my mind i thought, okay, we're diploma holders,
you do not have to test our linguistic skills just for the sake of that, god, its only a handphone promoter job,

she asked us to demonstrate how we would promote by promoting our own handphones,
my friend started quite well, he said all about what he like about the phone and all,
it was me who tried so hard not laugh, YES, i still feel like laughing okay, so i stumbled a lil while talking,
i could not bear to see her and keep remembering what my friend had told me earlier,
but overall i managed to save myself by giving one clear cut reasonable sentence,
and yea, they want us to promote the LG phone, i was like shite, you know how hard to promote this phone,
i confessed to her i nearly bought the LG chocolate phone cause i like the design and touchpad navigations,
but because at that time they didnt have the memory stick slot in the phone i decided not to,
i bought a sony ericsson walkman phone instead because the mp3 player attracted me,
okay...end of interview and she said she would give us a call,
i did get the call alright but decided not to take the job because the pay is low for weekends,
YES, only for weekends.

second up was a really awkward moment and seriously,
i have to undermine the serious issues of being "well-prepared".
we went for an interview near chinatown there, yes if uve noticed the last one was at paya lebar,
i am culturally aware of that,
alright, so i told him that i seriously feel like backing out cause i did not feel good about this,
it was a marketing executive job, and they sent us an email before telling us to bring our resume,

when i entered i saw a few people wearing formal clothing and i said to my friend,
"man, is it me or are we like the only two going up with t-shirts and jeans",
i seriously did not know that we were suppose to wear formally,
i even saw some of them in blazers and ties okay,
one of the most awkward and ridiculous thing i have ever experienced for an interview,
but its just our apparels right?...WRONG,

we went inside the office and although its a small one, all of them are professionally don,
even the receptionist there had a slight twang to her accent,
but i do not whether its natural or not, considering how people nowadays are implementing that,
i overheard one of them talking about america and business trips, damn,
i asked my friend while filling in the forms, how long is the job going to be like,
he told me, that he informed the receptionist that we are going to be free for like 6 mths,
i feel like smacking his head on the tv screen, NS is like a few mths away,
well, my fault too for jumping straight from the plane without a parachute,
we just gave her the form and our resume and told her we come back tomorrow with proper attire,
she smiled and i died, okay, no.
we did not come back anyways.

the rest of the days were practically normal,
i had enough of interviews anyways after what had happened,
so, probably next week i would give it a go, but this time, i hope, no funny incidents,
and it is so hard to find an administrative job?
its like i am looking for experience and not the money,
okay...maybe the latter isnt entirely true but come on,
maybe i havent had the luck of finding a job cause i am not serious enough,
i guess what i just said is true.

still waiting for my pay from last weeks job anyways,
they should let me do the logistics for that, since its' soo hard to send the timesheets in,
they asked us to do the job, now when are they going to do theirs.

6:48 PM

Sunday, April 15, 2007

okay...two movies that i had the chance to catch today,
been like waiting for almost a week to actually watch em.

first up,

if you were wondering what they were doing there as marines, then this movie would really gear you up for army life later. not exactly singaporean style but then bits and pieces of the army lifestyle would be applicable. i still remember how the main character narrates the story as it goes on and the shite that he has to go through. Like getting cheated by his gf, covering his friends mistake which got him demoted, seeing charred bodies and how he keeps repeating the masturbation part over and over again. I really dig the part of how they portray the thoughts of the soldier in their own perspective and not by exaggerating them.

the second one,

well, i suppose quite a few of you out there have catch this movie recently. really inspirational if you aspire to be a teacher.i dont mind hillary swank being my teacher you know, i havent really got a teacher like her before. okay, seriously, i found out its actually based on a true story from a bunch of kids in long beach, they wrote their lifes and what they had gone through in a journal then into a book and it actually helped to ease out the racial differences that existed in that class plus it had a positive effect on their minds. But one thing is that i like about how they used the holocaust incident during the Nazi war against the Jews, i mean people who are racist should look up what happened during that war and realise it aint worth nothing to hate and kill.

by the way, a few of my friends already got their enlistment letter into the police academy, when am i getting mine huh. I really cant wait to don the uniform, serve 2 years and then figuring out what to do next apart from getting further education.

11:47 PM

Saturday, April 14, 2007

11:27 PM

and things come to an end and so does my work at rp,
mixed feelings after working there,
most of the time covered with smiles,
i still miss poly though seriously,
being with them again is like a flashback,
but this time i could not say i see you around school.

from walking barefooted on the field with mud that smells of shite,
and carrying things and more things,
to talking with some of the new students there,
all in all it was a nice week there i guess,
for now i am just waiting for the money to roll in,
and face a new challenge of work experience,
but this time more of the professional line that requires my cert.

12:24 AM

Tuesday, April 10, 2007

sighs, the sai kang job at republic was really tedious,
i think i may have carried enough weight to last a lifetime,
okay...maybe i am exaggerating on that part,
tomorrow we have to learn a dance and some warcry shite,
spare me those and bring more heavier workload please.

and i had one awkward embarrasing moment on the way home,
i felt sorry for the girl whom sat nxt to me in the bus,
i accidentally knocked her nose while trying to get up from my seat,
purely an incident, luckily she was fine,
damn it, if i saw her again i would freaking apologize once again,
but it was pure accidental and accidents happen,
gotta be more careful next time,
and i did not realise she was pretty till i knocked her nose,
haha, i was too tired to even realize that all the while.
what a goofball, i am.

on a more nicer tone, ive got a callup from the IT trainer agency,
most probably trying to assign me a job but ive got one this week,
so they say, they would call me up next week,
gonna be a teacher soon, hopefully the kids wont give me hell,
funny thing is,
i still cant dodge the fact that they would address me as mr iskandar or mr shah.

12:01 AM

Monday, April 09, 2007

alright, away from home for three days and i feel fatigued,
the chalet wasnt that bad cause i had loads of fun there,
from ghost incidents, birthday party, fishing and bbq-ing,
plus i never tasted such nice chicken wings and bbq food,
because i did the bbq-ing for most of the time,
all the people were like asking me, why are you sweating like hell,
i was like, "okay....cant you see that i am bloody doing the bbq pit",
haha, in the end, most of them came and fan me instead.

by the way, i witnessed the two indian kids that drowned at pasir ris,
a group of indians were like playing the drums and chanting some mantra,
my friend had the nerve to say that the music was not that bad,
even wanted to record it but out of respect failed to,
we went fishing that night and i told them when the fishes learn to barter,
because everytime we casted the line, the bait would be gone and things like,
plastic bags and leaves would be returned.

today, by the way, i managed to pickup rollerblading,
went with a group of friends which are my poly-mates,
meet em right after i went home in the morning,
i think i fell a freaking four times, all with different styles,
a split fall, a manouver fall, slide fall and another on the butt.
maybe i should treat them as my signature moves,
and when i fell i would like go, "f*** shite, damn it, bloody hell"
people would probably think i actually enjoy falling down,
because i did fall a couple of dozens time when i skateboard,
and i would end up laughing and say some freaking phrases,
but on the contrary, i think i do like the adrenaline pump,
shite, im beginning to become an adrenaline junkie.

okay then, i am starting to feel the fatigue right now,
and i am working in the morning tomorrow,
need money because its been quite awhile since i spend lavishly,
i need to start pay my internet bills by myself anyways,most probably with the overall bills when i start to work full-time,not that my mum asked me, i feel its time you know, haha.

some of the peeps

caught dead beat in the bus

12:59 AM

Thursday, April 05, 2007

to have real friends and true ones are really hard,
to find a real love and true almost virtually impossible.

ok, now the busy phase begins for me,
guess its time for me to let my metabolism match the pace of my life,
seriously in need of some motivation, lazyness doesnt even match it,
when this happens, the cells in my brains turn into sub-concious mode,
its not all that bad, considering the sub-atomic level of thoughts that are generated,
but its damaging the priorities that i have set for myself.

by the way, am on hiatus till sunday,
not really gone, but call me if anything alright.

11:48 PM

Tuesday, April 03, 2007

truely, a different element they are in right now,
i am stoked about their upcoming album.

an abstract of what i have written and left flabbergasted,
maybe it defines something, guess i have to search for the answer,

where astronomical events occur that bleaked the earth
lies beneath a sudden chill of arctic coldness,
the search goes on as the eyes are blinded,
with the crude amount of days are left numbered,
it stretches beyond the horizon where the mind searches,
this fate of life that is gifted, the soul boggles,
what is there to be seen and felt, still it lays beyond recognition.

9:02 PM

Monday, April 02, 2007

After this, i am seriously amused by this shite, try it. Damn, i still got tears in my eyes, from laughing too much, haha.

12:52 AM

Sunday, April 01, 2007

Damn, i saw a freaking video about McDonalds,
I swear i look at it with such disdain now,
But still i would go for the burgers, pls no fries, haha.

Somebody rid of this migrain ive been having,
Caused by this wisdom tooth thats growing,
No physical pain but mental pain,
Enough to make me grow insane.
Ok...maybe not that too drastic.

On a more nicer tone and news,
The band that embodies hybrid theory,
Linkin Park is releasing a new album,
Minutes to Midnight
I am so freaking looking forward to that.

11:12 PM