Sunday, July 22, 2007
alright, been feeling rather down as usual this past few days,
but i swear, im shedding the feelings off and stepping into a new light,
i just hope that this would last seriously,
i cant help it, i think i have to serious electrocute my brain and heart,
so that this mist of depression would just f-off.
28th July, my pay day, that is one day i can really look forward to,
im broke like a pauper right now, all thanks to the before mentioned PS3,
i rarely play it nowadays, shit, i am beginning to wonder why i bought it in the first place,
but its alright, i am gonna get rich soon again,
and this time i wont spend more than $500, ive learnt my lesson.
ive been looking at nike sb dunks,
i love them seriously, so probably i would go buy one after this,
in singapore the designs are kind of limited, so i have to really search,
maybe i should just go try online shopping for once,
one of the designs i am looking at.
anyone have a similar interest or any recommendations,
pls feel free to contact me okay.
3:24 AM
Tuesday, July 10, 2007
alright..
just forget the previous post,
its just a way of me letting off some steam,
i rarely get pissed or angry, so when i do, its kinda weird,
theres truth in there i suppose but cant be harboring on it.
okay...different side note,
i think i will make a t-shirt with SEPT 14th on it,
coze i am kinda tired with everyone asking me when is my enlistment,
ARSE...u people dun have to do the reminding for me ok,
but then again, i feel excited and kinda anticipating it.
work has been a nice place really,
with the current peeps, i feel kinda sad if i have to leave,
forget the stupid callers, they are the source of our entertainment sometimes,
i think i will go into overtime mode, once most of my friends have gone NS,
have to save up for the things that i have to achieve in the future,
i cant believe i am going to reach 20 soon,
people say i am quite young and this and that,
believe me, i do not feel younger by the day,
i could feel the stubble near my chin growing,
and all the other factors that are showing,
phases in life keeps flipping by like chapters in a book.
oh wells....
live today, cherish it, and make the most for your future.
1:17 AM
Friday, July 06, 2007
fuck, i am feeling so down that i swear it is killing me slowly,
i smile alot, smile till it burns a picture on my face so perfect,
when all i did was wearing a mask of facade,
life is shit when it is, i feel like screwing it everytime i think abt it,
everyone would say its a phase, but what if it isnt,
cause its beginning to eat me up from the inside.
life is having its fair share of laughs at me,
mocking me to the point that i refuse to have it,
the strength of the family keeps it from going,
factors that make me stand up and point this finger,
triggering this deep sense of urge to just fight back,
every ounce of will, conjured and amplified.
everytime this heart and mind gets pounded till it sores,
a hurt so strong it could not be recovered.
yes this is me,
the real me, if you know whats reality,
behind the frame of this body, lies a deep soul awaiting,
reverting back when it chose to hide into obscurity.
4:01 AM
Thursday, July 05, 2007
i feel that i am drifting away,
drifting from things that are most important to me,
no way would i remain a drifter, let alone a lost drifter,
so i am taking all the strength i have left,
give it another shot to put me back on track,
because ive realised something, that would nvr be understood,
alright, i guess this post would be more of an enigma,
in case you're wondering, dont.
12:20 AM
Sunday, July 01, 2007
what a month, seriously,
i think i may have splurged a lil over the top,
but its really worth it, this piece of beauty,
the feeling of satisfaction of spending shouldnt be mixed with regret,
i just hope that i would be more concious abt my savings,
in need of a financial adviser here.
work has been relatively redundant,
with the gst rising to 7%, all goods are raised,
good, more unsatisfied customers that will threaten,
"i will sign up for singnet"...hmmm...
personally i do not give a damn, because they are unreasonable,
but luckily i am one who makes sure what happen in the workplace,
stays there, and each passing day, i feel numbed listening to all those people.
random thoughts here....
i am glad, i am one who pretends to ignore,
not naive or anything, just that i do not want to bother myself,
its hard to keep getting bothered, so i just keep it sealed in me,
that way, i do not seem troubled or lure people into wondering.
and yes, nxt up for me is a licence and maybe a bike during NS,
dumbshites, imagine me travelling from end to end of singapore,
still have to take a ferry, it will be much more convenient to have a bike,
oh yea, i forgot, its not recommended as i would carry BIG bags,
oh wells, at least it will be an accommodation of ease when i go out.
too many things to achieve, and its not long before i turn 21,
in two years time, seem long ey?
believe me, three years in poly felt like a year to me.
4:12 AM
