i guess i was trying too hard to improve i forgot who i am,
identity crisis, it has not escalated to that yet.

by the way, i aint arrogant seriously,
its just that sometimes i prefer to be the silent one,
you know, just go through a day without being noticed,
i dont know, i suppose days like that are considered my silent day,
one where i will randomly crack jokes and get all mute at the next moment,
people sometimes mistake this as arrogance,
but, trust me, open me up and you will find that i am not even close to that word.

even my family sometimes got this so called treatment,
especially when i am in this trance like state, like a zombie,
okay, maybe not to that extent,
this is seriously making me show the persona of a weird person,

and yes, that feeling, it has gone away yet again,
god, thank you for making me feel certain and making the uneasiness fade away,
i think i am still quite immature at this type of things,
hopefully, a real one will come up in the future.

and yes, the warm bed, the cold night with drops of rain pelleting the ground,
it is such a perfect night, hopefully, the dream will be as well.